Pain stayed so long....

Have you heard this poem?

Pain stayed so long, I said to him today,

"I will not have you with me anymore."

I stomped my foot and said, "be on your way!"

then paused there, startled at the look he wore.

"I, who have been your friend?" He said to me.

"I, who have been your teacher - All you know

Of understanding, love, of sympathy,

And patience, I have taught you. Shall I go?"

He spoke the truth, this strange unwelcome guest;

I watched him leave, and knew that he was wise.

He left a heart grown tender in my breast.

He left a far, clear vision in my eyes.

I dried my tears and lifted up a song

Even for the one who'd tortured me so long.

This is one of my favorite poems. Some may know that I have had quite a battle with chronic pain for the last several years. I don't really know how it all came on, but it did.... and suddenly. I remember at a family reunion with my family starting to feel really dizzy. Before I knew it, I couldn't even lay down with my eyes closed without vomiting from how dizzy I was. I was also suffering with sharp and chronic ear pain. I wasn't allowed to drive and could barely move. After many doctors appointments, and many false diagnoses, I found to have completely rotten tonsils that were causing an infection that was travelling through my head. I had my tonsils out ("hell on earth" is what I call that surgery at age 30) and found that my dizziness gradually got better, but the ear pain became a lot worse. Shortly after all of this, I began having chronic migraines. I would have about 3 migraines a week, which were always accompanied by sharp pain in my ears, jaw and neck. I began my search for the cure.... because there was no way I could live like this. I searched, and I searched and I searched again! I spent thousands of dollars trying to find answers and never came up with one. To say I suffered from depression was an understatement. I have never had such a desire to die. I hate to even admit that, but living with constant pain makes you crazy!!! I lived like this for over 5 years. And then, just about 3 months ago, I found something that helped me beyond belief. I was crying to my mom, and telling her how I couldn't go on anymore, and she gave me the name of someone to call. She said, "I am going to hang up and I will call you back in 5 minutes and you better have made an appointment with him". I didn't even really know if he was a doctor or what, but I decided I better obey my mom and give him a call. It turns out he (his name is Randy Grant) is a nutritionist/chemist who has developed all kinds of supplements and enzymes for the body. He analyzes your blood under a microscope and can tell you basically every thing that is wrong with you! When we looked at my blood it was unbelievable - filled with all kinds of parasites and problems- you wouldn't believe it. I had severe problems in many areas, including lots of inflammation. He said that he was sure I had all of the things the doctors told me I had (TMJ was what we were focusing on primarily) but that my real problem was my blood. I began taking these supplements on January 7th and haven't had a migraine since. I rarely get ear pain any more, either. I can not even express the gratitude I have for being cured from these problems. I can't even express it. I almost have to remember the kind of person I was before I had chronic pain.... I mean, I have forgotten what I did before I was just surviving.

I didn't mean to ramble on and on about all of this - but I feel that this is more exciting to me than anything else that has happened in the last couple of years! My whole point in telling this story is that this poem is true. I have gained an understanding that I never would have had, had I not dealt with chronic pain. I am so thankful to all of my family who helped me endure this trial and listened to my endless cry-fests and complaints. You can go to http://www.divinenature.com/ to get more information about Randy's supplements, and if you set up an account, you get them for a significantly cheaper price. I highly recommend them.